A Thousand Times

Caught a flight back east
To those familiar streets, hometown
Guess I hoped to see you there
But I’d never say it out loud

These past three years have like a dream
I pinch myself as if I’ll find you lying next to me

I’ve tried a thousand times
To leave you behind
I’ve tried a thousand times
I walked out the door
I left my keys on the back porch
God knows, I’ve tried a thousand times

Awkward hello, kiss on the cheek
Exchange pleasantries like strangers
But I remember the way that you held me
Brushed my lips, promised we’d always be together

These past three years have like a dream
I still pinch myself as if I’ll find you lying next to me

I’ve tried a thousand times
To leave you behind
I’ve tried a thousand times
I walked out the door
I left my keys on the back porch
God knows, I’ve tried a thousand times

A thousand postcards on the wall
A thousand times I almost called
A thousand words inside my head
A thousand times almost said
And every road that led away
Would lead me back to you someday
A thousand nights I spent alone
A thousand road signs pointing home

I’ve tried a thousand times
To leave you behind
I’ve tried a thousand times
I walked out the door
I left my keys on the back porch
God knows, I’ve tried a thousand times
God knows, I’ve tried a thousand times